Tyranny of the To Do list

The nesting instinct can kill ya!

This weekend, I shut down. I was pretty worthless on Saturday, and it depressed me. Part of it was knowing all the people I had not talked to, and owed a call or email to, as well as the dust layered on every surface of our home, nursery not painted, the papers not gone through, the appointments to make, the errands to run and buy, the registering to complete, the blog I had not updated since MARCH...and that's just the personal side of life - at work last week, we had a deadline to get some pilot sites live (as well as maintaining regular work requests and routine emergencies), we were down to two account managers, and it was a race to the finish. Greg was so gentle with me, which almost made it worse, because I wanted him to join in the party of castigating my lazy bones. But I got a surge of energy on Sunday (probably because I vegged the day before, right?!) and was thankful.

Now, I'm staring down the coming week, of all good things, mind you - bathroom semi-remodels, furniture deliveries, photo op of us with the growing belly, people connections to make, financial and childbirthing classes to attend, interviewing the new pediatrician, two baby showers (with work mates and then Atlanta on the weekend), and wrapping up work left undone last week as we met deadline's priority. Not many of the things on my to do list have been completed, (but maybe my list needs to include all the many steps and prep work that needs to happen first) so that something can get accomplished and crossed off the list. 'Cause I've made headway in those things - it just doesn't feel as satisfying as checking off an entire item.

Sorry - I hope you survived my rant, and I know you have your list too. Thanks so much for taking the time to care about mine. A great encouraging thing happened at the end of the day Friday - a dear friend at work, who kindly has allowed me in her life, dropped by my desk. I was in the midst of the craziness, but made a conscious effort to stop all the madness in my head (and stacked on my desk) to visit with her. Because at the end of the day, I will remember that short visit more than any of these other status report things for much longer, and will hopefully have progressed a friendship that will last above the fray of just everyday life.

A BOY!

It has been too long since I have last posted. Probably because I was too busy living to document the life. This is the recollection of finding out who this child was going to be - the day before Greg left for Rome, Italy for his oldest niece's wedding.

We found out that we have a BOY! We are thrilled...Greg and I went to our ultrasound appointment in our new OB/GYN's office, and the imaging tech worked her magic to find out. He quickly appeared on the viewing screen - he seemed to be looking right at us. Just seeing him so much bigger than the last time was a shock - even though I knew he was growing, and had even begun to feel him move, flutter and kick. And to see the full shape of his head, his chin, his eyes, his feet and fingers was a wonder. We both couldn't get enough of watching him as she manuevered, taking all his measurements. She seemed pleased with everything she was documenting, and we were thankful he was growing so good and vibrant. It cracked us up, too, because the majority of the time he was positioned with one arm behind his head and his legs stretched out with ankles crossed! He was just chillin' out! We got the biggest kick out of this attitude, and pose.

We couldn't wait to tell everyone, and started calling right away. Amazing how joy just naturally overflows the banks of your heart...

for Greg

if i could take your contented breath
as you join me in our bed,
and wrap it up
like so much origami
sweetness,
i would quickly grow fat and happy
with peace in our life.
fact is, this belly grows as evidence of
new life that is third, wanting to join
in the fun of you and me.
our small circle grows - and we
wonderingly welcome this new
as we soothe to rest
the old of how we had
come to know
us.